What I Couldn't Fix.
So yeah, recently I’ve been feeling kind of down, because I ended what once felt like the perfect relationship… all because of something I couldn’t control.
It feels like a shame to me that I ended it instead of trying harder to help him. Yet I always ask myself: how could I have helped him with something even he was struggling to understand within himself?
He was fighting battles inside his own mind. How could I ever step into something like that?
But somehow I always find myself returning to him. Returning to the same three memories, the best moments of our relationship, twisting them in my mind just to comfort myself.
My mind has already started moving on, because it knows there was no solution left to chase. And yet my bed still feels cold as I lie down for another night, knowing it won’t feel right… because it will never be the same again.
It’s hard to let go of someone you care about, especially when you know they’re struggling. But sometimes, the best thing you can do is to step back and let them find their own way.
I just hope he’s doing well. I hope he’s happy because I know he deserves it.
And I hope that somewhere along the way he find someone who can help him through his struggles... because I know how much he needs it.